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   so as you may all know.. im a faty.
or w.e ...some people think im normal. but to me normal is just as worsre as fat.
i want people to describe me as that thin pretty girl not some fat chick.
like no one says that only some family.
my dad told me in the car the other day that oh.. your not fat your just swollen right now..
that felt like a slice with a knife..
i mean i shouldnt get mad..but what else am i suppose to feel.
i just binged like a crazy starving person just a few hours ago.. ate candy. hotcholcet. rice with this strifry and pack of raw noodles then 3 packed of cooked noodles. then felt like shit and puked most of the noodles. out.. iono im jsut fat and disapointed
i starved my self  until i binged and i lost about 10 pounds. in like 5 days... look what i have become..... a monster..
just only wish some one or something can give me the will to lose 30 pounds.
or more.. to reach my goal of 105

id be the happiest girl ever...

xoxo...think thin. All you need to do is believe.